Times like these that I really miss my live journal. I used to update it all the time and not care who read it or didn’t read it, I just loved writing in it. I didn’t leave live journal because I didn’t like it anymore, I left it because I just didn’t update it so much anymore… Maybe I’ll go back to it? I just don’t feel comfortable writing on tumblr sometimes. Hmm.

I started feeling sick around Friday night. My throat felt awful and it was that unfamiliar feeling of just knowing you’re going to get sick. The next morning, I felt awful. The day after that, I felt even more awful. And then on Tuesday I thought that maybe I was starting to get over it and by today for sure I’d be OK.WRONG. I feel worse today than I have the past few days. I feel sleepy, groggy and everything hurts T-T

Apart from feeling sick like a dog, I didn’t want to call out from work because I already did that last week because of my feet and I didn’t want to hear it from anyone that I like to skip work(even though it was only the second time the entire time I’ve been in Spain to miss work.) I hate being here. I feel like my boss judges me every single time I’m not smiling. I hate that! If a guy is in a bad mood or sick at work. Everyone tells him he should have stayed home and tells him he’s such a hard worker. If a woman is sick, everyone thinks she’s weak and teases her for coming to work and expects her to carry on like nothing is wrong. My boss keeps popping up around corners telling me to smile more, WHAT THE FUCK I AM SICK LEAVE ME ALONE YOU ARE LUCKY I CAME TO WORK AT ALL. I didn’t do it for him or even for me, I have people depending on me coming to work today for tutoring purposes and they really need extra lessons.

Why do women always have to be in a good mood at work? Men aren’t always in a good mood. As long as work gets done, who cares what mood people are in once in a while. I agree that people should be pleasant at work, BUT NOT ALL THE FUCKING TIME I AM NOT HERE TO LAUGH AT YOUR JOKES OR KISS YOUR ASS WHENEVER YOU PLEASE. I am a very pleasant person, I am very helpful and I care a lot about my job, but sometimes you are an asshole and I owe you nothing. Not even a smile when I don’t feel like it.